I wanna know every inch of your body. Every scar, every freckle, every birthmark. I want to explore your entiry body, slowly. I want to hear your heart beating, I want to feel your warm skin against mine. I want to softly trail my fingers down your spine, I want to feel your soft lips against mine…

I want to feel your hands around my face as you pull me in for a kiss. I want you to kiss me soft and hard, all at the same time. I want to feel your body pressed against mine. I need to feel you growing harder against me….

Grab me, kiss me and let me collapse into your arms, breathless….

Pas de variété…..

Ever since I entered the office this morning I have been acting “normal”. It’s almost noon and I feel like something has died inside of me. Acting normal makes me utterly miserable. I feel like an empty shell.

I always told myself that I would never become a part of the herd, and yet 5 years later, here I am. Every morning the same thing. Up at 7.30am, out the door by 8:15am, at the office by 8:50, leave work at 5:30pm, home by 6:15pm. Eat, sleep and repeat. I feel nothing. Every day the same thing, over and over and over again. It’s so monotonous. Is this what I’m supposed to do the rest of my life?

I honestly don’t get how the rest of the herd hasn’t jumped off of a cliff yet.

This is so depressing. I’ve come to the conclusion that I was never meant to be “normal”.