I have thought about this long and hard (lol) and I’ve come to a conclusion.
I have tried the “happy go lucky-life is awesome-unicorns and fairy dust” thing and it is just not in me. I feel like a liar when I act like that.
I am me, flaws and all. I can be (extremely) negative and a total downer at times but I am also a very good and caring person. I am the type of person that would give a shoeless person the shoes off of my feet. So yeah, maybe I moan and whine a lot, it’s my outlet.
I know that interaction with me can be hard at times and all I can say is that I do all that I can, I do my best, I can’t do much more. I have decided that I will no longer pretend. Not for anyone. I am me, I am who I am, I am not perfect.
I am now 24 and I’ve changed a lot, especially compared to say 5/6 years ago. The old me was much worse, believe me.
If I consider you my friend, then please, don’t take that for granted because that means that I would go through hell and back for you.
I don’t do what I do because I expect something in return, I do it because I was raised right by my Grandmother and because I am a good person. So don’t take my kindness as a weakness and do not take it for granted either.
This is me, and I’m here to stay.
Sorry, not sorry.